So about a month ago, I decided that I no longer for sure wanted to go to law school/be a lawyer, at least for the time being. My pops flipped his lid when I told him last week.

Some backstory: I started reading the book How To Get Into The Top Law Schools by Richard Montauk, JD (good read, by the way, there’s way more in the book than just getting into a top law school), and the first chapter is all about self-reflection and trying to truly figure out whether or not a law degree — $200,000 and 3-4 years — is actually worth it, FOR YOU, seeing as a Juris Doctorate is no longer the “universal degree” that it was once thought to be. Well, long story short, I came to realize that maybe it wasn’t for me anymore. I ended up realizing that I never I legitimately never had an actual reason, for me, as to why I wanted to be a lawyer besides the respectability politics in the profession and money.

So after about 12 years of saying that I wanted to be a lawyer, everyone telling me that I would one day make a great lawyer, and now everyone expecting a JD out of me, I pretty much threw that entire dream and expectation in the garbage along with my life plan for the next 10 years. I’m not saying that I did alot of crying because of this, but I did alot of crying once I came to this realization. Keep in mind, I’ve already taken the LSAT once. However, after about a week, I realized that none of this is actually a bad thing. I had to get to the point where I understood myself, what I genuinely wanted in my life, and what happiness actually looked like for me.

Change is not a bad thing. A new direction can sometimes be a major blessing. And I’m honestly very excited about this new life direction I’m taking, whatever it may be because I still have no clue what I wanna do now.